Well, it's sunday and brian spent the night last night. it was brian's last night...hopefully forever!!!!! we sat at blackstone's for lunch today and brian said...."i just spent my last night last night" it's like...."yeah, oh my gosh......these steps that we are taking are ones that we have never taken before. we have had a cancer run since october and knew all, had our places to hang out to let marshall's visitors hang and chat with him freely...we know all and they know us. it's a family in and out of the hospital....
today, i woke up....let's back up. i went home last night and got home around 6ish and the kids were gone. our great friends took the 6 kids to dinner, movie and then maggie moo's....they had a blast....anyway, i went home with NO ONE THERE.......Heaven!!!!! i did laundry...bc brian let me know that he was out of "underwear" so, went home and did "our" laundry.....and i was reheating dinner.....and had the microwave going on, and the dishwasher and i thought i heard the garage door open. i was like....."hello?" and i heard "hello" it was my hubby!!!!! man...this is awesome.....he came home since marshall had a ton of visitors and he left and decided to just go home...it was a treat. we watched a movie together and chilled until marshall needed a dinner.......so, kids got home late...that's okay......granted my pandora didn't work on our DVD and my NOOK....well there went my chill night with music.....so, no biggie....but brian let me....boohoo.....i cried...it was so nice to just sit with him and watch a movie....so, get up this morning and then i take the 6 kids to Mass....of course Sean and Aidan were on each side of me...and i had to make sure they were looking forward, not picking on eachother, then one would go to the other side of me and i would pull them back without looking...yes, i am that good.....so it goes with Mass. we saw family friends and then i had to deal with the "pointing:" pushing down the fingers bc someone might think they are pointing at them and they are not...you know the drill.....it's life and it's funny...wouldn't have it any other way. so, chatted after Mass then took the kids to the hospital to see marshall. it's been forever since they had been here. they had a 2 person rule during the flu season and you know what that means....ummmm, not gonna do it....not gonna fight who gets to go and not...so we made it simple....no one went...but those of you with large families so get me in this.....some might say i am cruel, but life in a large family works different and there are different rules that apply and we are all good and no one complains bc we all understand....love this
i am happy....don't know why......yes i still want to cry a little but i am slowly coming to terms with the ending of this...as long as i don't have to say good bye to any of the nurses i am good.
so, they came brian got doughnuts and orange juice for the kids....brian's parents were here when we came it was great and we just chilled, the kids got to see marshall and granny and papa.......then brian and i took them home and i packed up for my last night and we went to get a bite to eat, get marshall something and then head to the hospital. so...it's been a good day. met a dad, actually two as i was walking out to give marshall a break from a parent while visitors were here....in a wierd way...i hate to leave. i will miss everyone here......we have met some great people......parents, nurses....etc.
it was a great day..... we just went around 6b and asked some kids if they wanted some pizza that marshall had leftover.......we are laughing and see the end....and marshall is a different very happy man right now......one of the boy's didn't want any pizza, so we made rounds and came back to our room and he and his mother (he is 5) came in and he wanted his picture with marshall. we chatted for a bit. he is adorable....your heart.....you have a mom that finds you and you understand her and feel it and you totally get it. granted she has one thing i don't... a seven week old.....and lives 2 hours away. we have it so easy.
i am not gonna get much sleep tonight. marshall gets his last round of chemo at 12:30...why i had to go get the party poppers....for him.....so no sleep...i am drinking my diet coke, had to get a refill......gonna need the caffine....that so doesn't look right...the spelling....hummm oh well. helicopters everywhere...hear them constantly since it's memorial day weekend...man the hospitals are busy with life flight...so sad...i always wonder what happened.....who is it? where were they? all those.....questions.
well, i am gonna write tomorrow...i will tell you about the night or early morning and marshall's last chemo. i am honored to be apart of this for and with my son!!!!!
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