He's got this!!!!!

Here I am...up for the day and wondering what it will have in store for us.  Marshall goes in today at 12:30.  we have to be there at 10:30.  We will wait, get called back, wait some more, answer questions for the millionth time, meet the doctors that will have our son in their hands, leave and wait in the huge room with other families having a child in surgery.  then they will update us and tell us to wait in a room for the surgeon to come and talk to us. 

Right there!!!! that is when my heart is going to stop. i keep envisioning what he will say, what the news will be and how i will walk out of that room.....which one is it?  i do not know.  what is Our Lord asking of Marshall, me, and Brian.  i do not know.  how will my life, our lives be different?  i do not know.  we can do this.  Marshall has this.  Please God let this be true!!!!!

I was very emotional yesterday (sunday)  i had finally chilled and got it all digested by friday.  but it was the feast of Pentecost at Mass......i was like....great, of course it is.  don't get me wrong.......i just knew the tears would be a flowing.......i did good......held off til communion...on and off earlier but got them to remain in my eyes......we got asked to bring up the gifts.  i thought it was ironic that the last time marshall went into surgery we got asked.  it was a sunday and he was going in on a monday.......of course i remind the kids to genuflect after handing the gifts to Father and sean didn't get the memo.....he turned left to head back to the pew, and colin and genuflected and sean trips over his leg....of course i kinda grab him and i am kinda laughing, trying not to........bc we are in Mass.......gotta love a big family and it's ups and downs...literally.

i woke up yesterday emotional again i think bc the surgery was tomorrow so i had to think about it.  have to pack and plan.......my work gave me a card via brian yesterday afternoon and said that they loved and supported me and have a surprise visitor for me...can i guess who?  well, brian said brook contacted him......so, i thought her brother from "little big town"  i ran out of the room and told the kids...clean up, clean up we have a visitor coming...they asked who and i said i don't know but maybe....blah, blah blah......had to fake it in the areas they would possibly be coming....ran down and told marshall and his girlfriend......

i went up to bed and rested looking at every car wondering when he would come.  i ended up falling asleep and someone said their here!!!!! i jump up and see our friend's car.......kinda registered kinda not.....they were bringing us dinner so i went to the bathroom, powdered my nose...and came out of the room and saw our friend.  he told me to go downstairs and had a surprise.......it was down there....i go down, still extremely sleepy and fuzzy.....and brian shows me the basketball all signed.....i was like ok......still don't know about the ball forgot.  so catherine tells me by the way you know your pink dress?  so eighties prom like......hot pink and poofy!!!! yeah baby!!!! i said yes.  she said will it got ripped the kids were playing and ripped it......i said ok lets see how bad...something like that......thank goodness i was still half asleep and people were around i would have killed a few peoples........so i go in and there in the closet my mom jumps up and down....SURPRISE.....i was silent....like not breathing.......i hugged her so hard and cried and cried......wow!!!!! that was incredible....and still in shock....

we had a great dinner as a family.  marshall wanted steak and crab legs...and that's what he got from our friends......i had a great steak and sweet potatoe, salad......yummmmmmmmmm  we all feasted!!!!!

so here we are today and i must run...it's late and i have to pack, get ready and go to work for 1 client then heading to the hospital...........

my heart hurts, and it's been beating nonstop.....alllllll night.  kept dreaming of i have no clue.........tossed and turned....today is the day!!!!!! bring it on.......and let's see how it ends up.

Our Lord be with my son, and this family!  Blessed Mother hold my son while the surgeons are working on him. Angels and Saints guide and protect my son and all those that will be assisting in marshall's surgery!